Seeing
Their Shoes
"Of
course you'd be a shoe fetishist the youngest in a large family
is always
looking at the shoes
of the grownups." --Alan Dugan
Especially the spectators,
toes and backs usually patent.
All those holes in their tiny saw teeth
where pools of white would well.
And pearl buttons
on opera pumps,
their bumpy silver centers like firm little nipples
straining to keep the straps filled.
Oxfords appraising
me with hard metal eyelets,
their long stares relaxing only with
laces undone, disheveled.
Spike heels, malevolent,
sensual, heady with
balance in high places. Old carpet slippers, easy
and slovenly like a long relationship.
My own high black
buttoned shoes,
from the store with Doctor in front of its name where the bones
of my feet joined like puzzle pieces
under the ghostly glare of the fluoroscope.
Wedges, wing tips,
walled toes, welts.
Grommets, aglets, ghillies, buckles.
Marcasite clips, Puritan bows.
Shanks, quarters, ankle straps.
Tongues, arches, vamps.
I would run about
the living room in my sensible shoes,
back and forth to please them, to pick the victrola records
before I could read—"Jada," Caruso, Harry Lauder—
to dance and their bidding, ready to
slither and slide on laps, knees, ankles,
While inside their
leather masks those five-headed
monsters kept time, panting and sweating and
huffing their terrible breath, ready to
crush me and stomp me at one false move,
on step out of line.
--Lila
Zeiger
Copyright © 2001 by Free Lunch Arts Alliance
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